Wednesday, December 31, 2008
2008 was a mixed bag for me. Gesa's death has affected me more profoundly that I had anticipated. It was by far the defining event of this year. I've been thinking alot about her this week. I've had several friends and family members pass away, but this has been the one that has been the biggest struggle for me. I guess it's because she was such a large part of both my personal AND professional life. I know it won't go away anytime soon, but I'm hoping putting 2008 behind will help. Wishful thinking, I'm sure.
On a bigger and better note, 2008 had some high points as well. It was the year we paid off our credit cards (a substantial amount, unfortunately), and bought the farmland. It was the year of the Alaskan cruise. And in knitting, the year I learned to do Fair Isle (and fell in love with it). Family life was good as well. The kids are getting more and more fun with each passing day. More of their individual personalities are showing, and it's so fun and fulfilling to watch.
2009 is looking good so far. We're meeting with a couple of builders over the next couple of weeks to discuss our plans for the new house. It looks like I'll make it to Rhinebeck. More debts will be paid down, or even off. I still have a lot of improvements to make, but really, life is looking pretty damn good right now. But of course, there's the obligatory New Year's Resolutions.
So, here goes:
1. Lose weight (yup, make this one every year...but this year will be different.)
2. Exercise consistently
3. Grow more of our own food
4. Simplify our lives and our stuff
5. Read more...I joined a group on ravelry with the goal of 52 books in 52 weeks.
6. Get up earlier each morning (maybe I'll use that time to work on #2).
7. Work more towards becoming debt free
9. Works towards living in the moment
10. Blog more
Thinking back, I probably made some of these last year as well. Further proof I have a ways to go. But we're all works in progress, right?
I hope you all have a wonderful and happy New Year. Kiss someone at midnight. Or get some good sleep. Here's to new beginnings.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Here's how it works:
1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. Write six random things about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post and link to them.
5. Let each person know they've been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.
Six Random things about me:
1. I LOVE washing dishes by hand. Seriously, I LOVE it. To the point that sometimes I wish we didn't have a dishwasher. But George disagrees, so we still have one.
2. I am terrified of mice.
3. When I was little, I had an imaginary friend named Susabelle. Anytime anything bad happened, she was always to blame.
4. When I was in medical school in St. Louis and really homesick, the thing I missed most was the smell of sagebrush.
5. I think Diet Coke is the nectar of the gods.
6. Tonight I played CLUE for the first time in probably 20 years, and had a blast.
Next up...I'd like to tag
Have a great Monday.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
This is what I've been working toward for years, and am a little floored that it's finally happening. Now we need to come up with a name for our farm. Right now I'm leaning towards Riverview Farm and Fibers. Any other suggestions?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
The "Top 8 of 2008"
1. A great husband. Seriously...he went on a knitting cruise with me. How cool is that?
2. The sweetest daughter in the whole wide world. It makes my heart melt when she says, "Mommy, I love you more than anything."
3. And now she's potty trained.
4. A heck of a character for a son. He is just so much fun to watch. Mischievious and in to everything, but not in a bad way.
5. That he survived the penny incident unscathed. It could have been much worse.
6. That Aylin (Gesa's daughter) has done so well.
7. That I've learned to appreciate each moment even more, because of what happened to Gesa.
8. That this man is our next president.
It's been a rough year for me in many ways. But in the grand scheme of things, I'm quite fortunate. I'm lucky to be here and to have all the blessings that I do. Have a wonderful day.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
We organized some of the cupboards as well.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
10. I can actually walk past STR and not buy anything. Not a single skein.
9. Sometimes, willpower isn't all it's cracked up to be. Now I'm regretting walking past that STR.
8. What a ratio is on my spinning wheel.
7. That I probably won't make much use of said ratios. I just sit down and spin. And that's what works for me. And that's usually okay.
6. How to really use my drumcarder for blending.
5. I'm a sucker for African baskets.
4. How to skirt a fleece.
3. How to spin for lace. Well, sort of...I need to practice this.
2. Navajo plying and me need to get to know each other better.
1. I love love LOVE spinning raw fleece. How did I not know about this sooner?
Great weekend. Unfortunately, I was too busy in my classes to take a single picture. From here we're headed to the Oregon coast. Then another knitting retreat next weekend. I don't know about the rest of my family, but this is pretty much my dream vacation...fiber, fiber, and more fiber.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
So off Catie and I go. I'm giggling as we're driving in. And as we check in. The nurses were all very nice and understanding. Catie had finally calmed down on the trip to the ER, and so was more cooperative. Thank goodness she's comfortable in the hospital, not because she's ever been a patient, but because of coming to visit me. She settled down and started playing.
The ER doc had me try and blow in her mouth. SUCCESS! A big ol' raisin booger came flying out. She hung out at the hospital with the nurses while I checked on a newborn. Then she comes home and tells me she wants a granola bar with a raisin in it, so she can take the raisin out. What is she going to do with that little dessicated grape, pray tell?
Saturday, August 09, 2008
I have a 4 day weekend this weekend. Today is my birthday...#34. Just another day at this point. But yesterday was awesome. Catie, her friend (Gesa's daughter) and I had a "girls' day" out. We went to lunch, Build-A-Bear, the bookstore, for tea anc cookies, and to get a hair cut. I don't know about them, but I was EXHAUSTED at the end of the day. They seriously wore me out! Here we are leaving home:
The girls with their haircuts and "ponies"
And just so Jack didn't feel left out, here's one of him. Looks like HE's the one who really needed the haircut. He's quite scruffy.
I have tomorrow and Monday off. Knitting and more knitting are in my future. Monday night I'm taking a 2 socks at once class. I'm hoping that will speed up my sock knitting some. Other than that, things are pretty boring. I'm looking forward to a morning of sleeping in. Assuming the kids are agreeable to that. Please oh please oh please!
Sunday, August 03, 2008
I've been a bit of a fiber/craft slut lately and went on a little crochet binge for awhile. I made a bag and have started an afghan. But, alas, I missed my true love, knitting. How could I have strayed? I do have to admit, crochet is a fun mistress. But knitting...ahh...knitting...
Today I finished a pair of socks. The March Rockin' Sock club sock...Leafling.
They're from medium weight, and I'm more of a lightweight kinda girl, but sometimes it's good to broaden your horizons, right? I loved the pattern and colorway. Now to get cracking on May and July's socks. And just because that's not enough, I started a new baby sweater today. I have a couple of friends/co-workers that have had babies lately, and I'm a little behind on the gift knitting.
There's so much more to update y'all on. What would you like to hear about next?
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
It's been an busy and eventful couple of months. I'm still adjusting to life without Gesa, both personally and professionally. There's days that I wish she was here to bounce something off of, or just to vent to her about work or home or the size of my butt, or something. I've inherited many of her patients, and we're all getting to know each other.
We went on our cruise to Alaska last month. It was amazing. It was somewhat stormy and rough, and because of the storms, the scenery may not have been as amazing as it could have been, but still, it was a GREAT vacation. The kids had a great time at their aunt LaLa's, and we're still hearing about the zoo and the park. There was much knitting and much buying of yarn. The food was good, the company was good. The zip line in Ketchikan was good (though the rope bridge/tree limb climbing part...not so much!) The Hubbard glacier was AMAZING! Victoria, BC, was, as always, a lovely place that I'm incredibly sad to leave. Overall, it was a desperately needed and perfect vacation. G even managed to enjoy himself, despite the overabundance of knitting and fiber that week. So much, in fact, that we signed up for next year.
Since being back, I've done some knitting. Mostly working. We've done some gardening as well. Things are growing quite well. Catie is proud of her garden, and likes to check it on a near daily basis to see what's growing. She has a little red watering can that she uses to water stuff. Quite cute, I'd say. When Jack is outside, mostly I try to keep him from eating rocks. Or bugs. Or alpaca poop. Seriously. That boy is something else.
This weekend, it's just me and the kids. G is in Las Vegas for a bit of a bachelor party for his friend Jason. We're having a good time so far. Probably not as good of a time as he's having, but well, I'll take snuggling with my kids in bed any day over loud and smoky casinos. It's the good life.
Monday, April 14, 2008
We've been back from DC for a week. G tried to take a picture of the president's helicopter and he swears some man in a black trenchcoat followed him everywhere around the monument mall taking his picture after that. It's unfortunate that we can't even be geeky Americans and take pictures of something like that without being thought of as a possible terrorist. Or maybe G is just paranoid.
I'd like to go back there sometime, under better circumstances. What an amazing place for history. Maybe after the kids are a little older, we'll head to the Smithsonian.
While we were there, I finished my sweater I've been working on. Well, except for the zipper. But the knitting is done. And in time for my cruise. Which is in only 3 weeks! I've sort of lost my knitting mojo since then. I haven't done much knitting on my latest pair of socks. I haven't bought yarn in about 5 months. I was thinking that a little retail therapy might be just what the doctor ordered. Any recommendations for a quick shawl that I could maybe get done before the cruise? I was thinking about the Clapotis shawl. It looks like it'd be a pretty quick knit. Any ideas?
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
I haven't written about this, because I didn't know what to say. I still don't know what to say, but feel compelled to write something. Anything. I think to some degree, I've been in some stage of denial. But today it all hit me. To say that today has been difficult would be an understatement. I saw several patients of hers today, and think I cried seeing each one of them. I've been sitting at my desk crying for over an hour, trying to finish the day's paperwork, and can't bring myself to do it.
I met Gesa 5 years ago, when I was still a resident and she was my attending. She scared the crap out of me. She was incredibly intelligent. And she could curse. Good lord, could she curse. We really became friends when she found out I wanted to learn to quilt. She has been an enormous source of support for me over the past 5 years. I hope that I provided some for her. She was who saw Jack when he was sick with the penny episode a couple of weeks ago. I don't even know if I really properly thanked her for taking care of him. She left for Maryland the next day. And now I'll never have that chance.
Gesa always said we should go to Washington DC together sometime. Now I'm going, but for something entirely different. To say goodbye. Her funeral is this weekend. G is going with me, and the kids are staying here, part of the time with my parents and part with a couple of friends. I don't think I've ever hugged my kids and G as much as I have these past few days. I have this sense of urgency that I need to make sure they know I love them. A sense of urgency that I ought to have every day. We, or at least I, seem to take things for granted. There will be tomorrow, next week, next month, next year to do...whatever it may be. But today may be it. And I'm reminded we need to make the most of it. This has really become crystal clear this week. Not that this should be the way that it gets drilled into my head, though. Somehow I feel better getting this all written down, even if none of you make it to the end of this.
So long, Gesa. Thanks for everything. And I'll miss you like crazy.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
That's my pile of fabric and yarn behind it. I haven't bought yarn for about 4 months. Fabric, though...that's a whole other story.
I have tomorrow off (sort of). I'm on call tonight, and have a bunch of errands to do tomorrow, as well as paperwork. Then it's 2 days in the office, and then I'm off to a women's health conference in Arizona. The town is Carefree, just north of Scottsdale. I'm going by myself. No husband and no kids. I've found a botanical garden there I'm going to go visit, but if any you out there have any tips for good places to go or eat, let me know.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
But still, 6 days of fever is a little concerning. I called my office this morning and had him worked in with one of my partners. The ears were good. The lungs were clear. No bad rash. His throat was a little red, but nothing horrible. He had lost 10 ounces since his check up last week, though. Since it'd been going on for so long, and he was dehydrated, we started with blood work, a urinalysis, a swab for influenza and RSV, and a chest x-ray. Just to "cover the bases".
The drawing blood was bad enough. The swabs sucked. The chest x-ray was even worse. They have this little chair they put the kid in, then strap him in with his arms above his head. But that was nothing compared to the overwhelming wave of nausea that hit me when this came out of the x-ray developing machine.
No, that's not a 70s disco gold medallion necklace. No, that's not something on the machine. That's a coin stuck in my son's esophagus. My little almost 13 month old son, that just a year ago, was just barely getting off the ventilator and out the the NICU. How crappy of a mom am I to first of all, let this happen, and second of all, to not even have a clue that it did?
So off we went to the ENT's office, who sent us to the hospital. We had to wait a couple of hours, because I had nursed him during his appointment at my office. So at 2:30, they took him back to the OR, put him to sleep, intubated him, stuck a scope down and pulled it out. His esophagus is a little irritated, but if certainly could have been worse. We were placing bets on what denomination of coin it was. I was voting for a nickel, but no...
A penny. A 1976 penny to be precise. I feel horrible. But Jack's none the worse for it. He is already much more back to his normal self. He chowed down on supper tonight. He's had his first soaking wet diaper in days. It could have been much worse, but someday we'll all laugh about it. We're already joking that we're going to have the penny and the x-ray framed or something.
The penny says, "In God we Trust". But in our house, it's in Dr. Lamers, Dr. Ward, and Dr. Snow that we trust.
Monday, March 10, 2008
I planted seeds tonight. To be correct Catie and I planted seeds. I did the planting, and she did the watering. Last year I bought her a little kids watering can, rake, etc. She didn't really use it last year, but tonight she thought it was the coolest thing ever. So hopefully our lettuce and spinach will actually come up this year. We'll do some more planting later on, but this is our start.
And in knitting news, I have finished a pair of socks.
The Serendipidity socks for the Rockin' Sock Club 2008. This was a great pattern. Love, love, love the socks. The only modification I made was to knit the cuff on size 2 needles to fit my fat legs. The heel and foot were in the size 1's the pattern called for. I'm a short-row heel convert. This heel fits me MUCH better than the heel flap/gusset that I usually do. Next I need to finish the sweater for myself. How is it possible that I both love and hate simple stockinette all at the same time? It's simple and easy, and yet at times it bores me to tears. I need another project to mix it up...Lace? Kid knitting? Another pair of socks?
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Along our fence in the back, we had some old roses that were crazy out of control and going wild. G dug them out this past week, and I think that spot will make a great area for potatoes...it's already somewhat of a raised bed, and I think I might try to grow some of them with the no-dig method I read about in one of my books.
Also we're getting closer to hopefully purchasing some land. We're trying to get our financing all lined up, and hopefully will actually make an offer in the next couple of weeks. Cross your fingers for us. I lay in bed at night and dream up ideas for our farm...a little orchard, a big veggie garden, intensive grazing for sheep and cattle, maybe a milk cow, a red barn, a big white farmhouse with clothes flapping on a clothesline. Utopia, I tell you.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Here he is with his new dump truck from Kim
And eating red velvet cake and Grammy's on Thursday.
And all this birthday party stuff is tiring...
Happy Birthday to my best boy!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
The premise is to grow something new this year that you haven't grown before. In our case, it's to have a more successful garden...we failed miserably last year, and I'm trying again. In the past 2 or 3 years, I've changed the way I think about food drastically. Maybe it's because I have kids. Maybe it's all those books I've been reading that have influenced me. Maybe something else. Actually, probably a combination of all of them. At any rate, the desire to eat more local is getting stronger and stronger. So strong that part of our lawn is now set aside for food growing, not grass growing.So, ideally, once a week, I'll post something garden/food related. This is the year things will survive!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
On Saturday, Catie and I went to Tea for Tutus. It was a fund raiser for Ballet Idaho. Catie wore the dress I made her. It was impossible to get her to stand still to take a decent picture of it, so here's the best we could get.
The dress wasn't nearly as dressy as all the other girls there. But that's okay. She still looked darn cute. It was a nice afternoon, and we went with some women from work with their kids. We hit the bookstore afterwards. We had dinner at my parents' house, then home to bed. After no nap, Catie was exhausted. Jack had spent the day getting spoiled by Grammy and Boppa.
I did manage to get some knitting done Saturday night after everyone was in bed. That seems to be my most productive time. Unfortunately, it makes it difficult to get up in the morning if I'm up until midnight or 1:00 in the morning knitting. I've been working on a sweater for myself. A Knitting Pure and Simple pattern...the zippered jacket. I've just finished with dividing for the sleeves, and am starting to work on the body. Miles and miles of stockinette to go. I want to have this done before our cruise in May, so I need to get cranking on it. I'm not an especially fast knitter. Or maybe just not a consistent knitter...there are days that go by when I can't get any knitting done.
I also finished the first sock from the January Socks that Rock club (well, except for weaving in the ends).
I LOVE this heel. I tend to do a top down sock with a heel flap, mostly because that's how I learned to knit socks. But this short row heel fits my foot so much better. I was terrified of the whole wrap and turn thing, but just like my fear of cables, it was unfounded. I think I'll end up doing the majority of my heels this way. Now I need to master toe up socks. One technique at a time.
Today it was gorgeous outside. I did some yard work. It was nice to get out there and do something a little more physical. There's just something about working outside that is comforting and fulfilling for me. I have a feeling I'm going to be sore tomorrow though. Who knew raking pine needles could be such a workout? Every spring, I get this incredible urge to garden. I know that's not different from many of you out there. In my head, I'm quite the master gardener. Alas, reality doesn't necessarily match up to my dreams. I'm making all these plans about what to plant and where. Grand plans. And if it's anything like last year, the veggies won't grow. The flower beds gets taken over by weeds. But every spring, this one included, I tell myself, "This year will be different." Time will tell.
And to finish off the post, a couple of close up kid pics. Catie is enamored with pig tails and pony tails. She calls them her "ponies". So here she is...
And Jack has discovered how fun it is to play "So Big"... Speaking of that, he turns 1 in 4 days. Yikes!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
1) Hearing my kids giggle
2) Snuggling in bed with G and the kids on a Sunday morning
3) A quiet house
4) Hand washing dishes (strange, but I love the routine of it)
5) How my dog is so excited to see me whenever I walk in the house
6) Starting to look at land to buy, so that we can finally stop dreaming about our farm and start building one
7) Snuggling up with a good book
8) Really good Thai food, especially green curry
9) A long soak in a bathtub
10) The smell of sagebrush in the rain
Yup...life is good.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Rules:Go back through your archives and post the links to your five favorite blog posts that you’ve written.Link 1 must be about family.Link 2 must be about friends.Link 3 must be about yourself.Link 4 must be about something you love.Link 5 can be anything you choose.Post your five links and then tag five other people. At least TWO of the people you tag must be newer acquaintances so that you get to know each other better.(Readers - don’t forget to read the archive posts and leave comments.)
1) Family...Thankful for a healthy kid Jack being in the NICU was the absolute worst 10 days of my life...you wouldn't even know it now to look at him. Thank God for all that technology.
2) Friends...Kim. 2 years later, we still joke about out dyeing skills, or the lack thereof.
3) Myself...The announcement. I never did make that sweater
4)Something I love...Delivering babies The hours suck sometimes, but I LOVE delivering babies. Especially when the dads cry.
5) Random...Shearing the girls. Oh, the wool!
And now...who to tag?
1) Kat with a K
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
On Sunday, the kids went to my mom and dad's. Without that distraction, G and I tackled the kids' room. Well, mostly Catie's room, as Jack is still in our room. But eventually, they'll share it. We hauled out 4 garbage bags of kids clothes to take to a resale store. Plus there's 2 boxes of stuff we're keeping...you know...the stuff they wore home from the hospital, special outfits, etc. We got rid of a bag of toys. I still have a couple of boxes of papers to go through. The room looks great. It needs a rug, but it's so clean and uncluttered. I LOVE IT! I haven't taken any pictures, and can't now, because Catie's already in bed, but it's wonderful. I'd like to do this with each room in the house.
Clutter is my downfall. I certainly know we won't have the "perfect" house. It will always look lived in. I'm okay with that. And I know it's a matter of doing a little bit every day to stay on top of it. I just can't figure out how to do that and get everything else done that I want or need to do.
This post really has no purpose, I suppose. Just me rambling. We're trying to simplify things here, and this is one of the steps on the way.
In other news, it's been snowing like crazy all day. I'm nostalgic for the good ol' days in school, when we could very likely have a snow day tomorrow. None of that now, though. That, and I'm knitting myself a sweater. I've always made them for other people. Now it's all about me!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Here's one of the projects that dominated my knitting time. I finished the Tulip Sweater. I started back in October or November, but it got set aside for one reason or another. Well, I pulled it out, and worked on it. I finally finished it yesterday, and am pleased as punch at how it turned out.It was an easy knit, and the colors make me happy to look at. This is the smallest size, and is a gift. Though last night, as I was weaving in the ends, Catie said, "You make big one and I wear it?" How can I turn that down?
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
I thought that today was my blogiversary, but after looking back through the archives, it was actually yesterday. So, happy late day to me as well. 2 years ago, I sat up late on New Year's Eve, and started a blog. After reading so many knitting blogs online, I wanted to jump into the fray. I've not been the most consistent blogger by any means, but I have enjoyed it, and enjoyed getting to know you all.
One of the many resolutions I've made this year is to be a better blogger. I'd like to get a couple of posts in each week. It's probably a little over-ambitious, but I'll try.
I actually went to 43 things and made up a long list of resolutions. Feel free to go check them out. This will be a process that will take more than a year, but I really want to get my life in line with my values. I feel sometimes like I do stuff because it's the way I've always done it or because it's convenient, not necessarily because it's the right way.
One of the biggest things that is going on this year is that we've decided, as a household, to not buy anything made in China. All year long. The safety issues, as well as the fact that jobs are being taken away from here in the US, all in search of the glorious dollar and increased profit margins, has prompted us to do this. I think (and hope) it will cause us to research and plan ahead, and really buy only what we need. Out little political statement about the economy and the shifting of production overseas isn't going to change anything, but we'll feel better about it. I'm sure I'll have updates with the struggles we have regarding this from time to time.
One of my resolutions was to go to bed earlier and get up earlier...I better head that way.